Wednesday, September 19, 2007

soul searching...

I have this urge to write a blog but I dunno where and how to start…Im battling with myself now…I hate this feeling…I have so many questions…

Is my current situation making me happy and would it make me happy eternally or it’s just burning me to hell?

Am I just making my life complicated?

What is life all about?

What’s my purpose in this world?

Why can’t I find my true happiness? I also deserve to be happy, right? We all deserve to be happy…

But what can make me happy? I want answers to these questions…These are just a few of the questions I have in mind ...

I guess, Im at a stage of soul searching…

True, from time to time, life can suddenly seem strangely pointless, if not painfully absurd…and occasionally, a need for deeper answers becomes more than a simple curiosity…we can either shrug those moments off or let them eat at us…but unfortunately for me, as much as I want to shrug those moments off, they just swallow me instead…

whew! Life’s a mess…If only I could turn back time…

For now, I will just try to look around and see if life makes sense to me…